This much im certain of:

This much Im certain of: A moment will come, maybe in a month, maybe a year, maybe even several year, or maybe its already happened. You'll be sick or feeling troubled or deeply in love or quietly uncertain or even content for the first time in your life. It wont matter. out of the blue, beyond any cause you can trace you'll suddenlly realize things are not how you preceived them to be at all. for some reason you will no longer be the person you belived you once were. you'll detect slow unnoticable shifts going on all around you, more importantly shifts in YOU. Worse, you'll realize its always been shifting. like a shimmer of sorts, a vast shimmer. but you wont understand how or why. you'll have forgotten what granted you this awareness in the first place. --you may dismiss this labor, call it needlessly complicated, pointlessly obtuse, ridiculously concieved, and you'll believe all you've said, and then you'll put it aside- although even here, just that one word "aside" makes me shudder, for what is ever really put aside?- and you'll carry on eat, drink, be marry and then again theres a good chance you wont.